Unanswered Prayer

I’m overwhelmed by you Your presence lingers in rooms you’ve left Empty My life has a you shaped hole This gap between my dreams and reality Unanswered prayer I watch you from a far. Longing Aching I draw back my hand as it reaches out to hold you You’re so damn cute when you’re tired But I’ll never hold you. You’re not mine You disrupt my world. Disarming the defenses I’ve so carefully put up. I would offer you my heart, but your hands are too full to hold it. And it’s swelled so much from unrequited love. It doesn’t seem to fit back in to its cavity. My chest heaves and vibrates when you are near. I’ve often wondered how you’ve never seen it. How no one else has. I seem to hold my breath whenever you’re around. I think maybe I’d get light headed if we breathed too much of the same air. I’m overwhelmed by you And so I try to fill the silences with meaningless words. Caging in the three words I long to say. Do you hear my plea in my rambling or do my silent requests fall on deaf ears. I speak to God about you. He seems to be the only one big enough to understand. The only one able to shoulder this weight I feel. I guess that’s because Love is shaped like a Cross and not a heart. And Jesus knew a thing or too about loving without reciprocation. You to me are a fascination. I see you’re mind working in the lines on your face, the glimmer in your eyes as you create. And I try to will myself in to your thoughts. I’ve become selfish and territorial about you. But you’re not mine. Still I think I will always remain overwhelmed by you